So as im writing this im feeling the lovely side effects of my medicine. Has that ever happened to you? Your doctor gives you this perfect little cocktail of 4 different meds an at first you think, well maybe these side effects will just go away, and nope 4 months later they are still there. My doctor wont take me off them because he thinks its the perfect combination, its worked on his other patients, blah blah blah. Well today ive had it, i feel like im about to throw up if i even attempt to leave the bed. All my friends think  im pregnant, but nope, unless im the virgin mary, there is no way. I get random headaches, that dont even hurt they just feel like someone is pulling on my brain and stretching it out, which is so uncomfortable. I shake all the time now, and im only 24 so you know thats not right. I also have weird head and eye twitches, which causes people to think im like mutated. Lets all be honest for a moment, no one wants to hear this, but its cold hard facts. ANYWAYS now that im done with my ranting, let me move on to some helpful stuff.


Medicine is amazing. It was created to help those who need it, and it does its job. Without medicine people with Bipolar disorder wouldnt have the fighting chance that they do. The only problem is that finding the right medicine takes a lot of time, which really


sucks. Ive gone through 3 years of trial and error and just when i thought i found the perfect dose, a dumb side effect stabs me right in the back. For example, Depakote Er was brilliant, but my hair started to fall off in chunks. That was no fun, and whats even worse is that i got stuck with worse pills after that, i had one that made my period stop and that gave me massive cramps.

So my advise, if you are stuck in this horrid trial and error period, dont give up. Talk to


your doctor if you start to feel some weird side effects, and dont be afraid to speak up. Medicine is your fighting chance at beating this mental illness, and having the right dose is what will give you the upper hand.

Have any horrid side effect stories, feel free to share them with me in the comments sections below!

Much love – Susy XOXO



Lets be honest today, bipolar sucks. Waking up every morning knowing you quit your job because you cant even do the basic things a human being should be able to do, interact with others, is pretty humiliating. The fact that my emotions are all over the place, and that i can barely keep a conversation with anyone without wanting to break down, is horrid. It sucks to know that there is a defect with me, that i was not born like every other pi-m-bipolar-and-i-cannot-keep-calmerson because genetics suck. I know, im supposed to give people encouraging words through this site, but doing so all the time isnt honest. There are going to be days when life is going to kick you down and you are going to sit there and take it. Bipolar isnt a joke, its dangerous, sad and well no one likes it. Ive manage to quit my job, spend over a thousand dollars, and punch my fiance all in the course of 2 weeks, and for no reason what so ever, other than i cant control my moods. My new medicines have made my mania skyrocket and my anger get out of control. My previous meds were the perfect combo but they made my hair fall out, but still depakote was heaven on earth with my moods. Now i just feel like shit everyday, and well i dont know what to do about it, besides of course going to my doctor and having him switch me for the bajillion time this year. Anyone who has this disorder knows pills come and go, keeping relationships is hard, controling your moods is something we wish about, and well keeping nightmares away, well thats a joke, and insomnia is perfect proof of that. Anyways that was my rant! Keep your head up!

Mental illness linked to creativity?

So I have neglected this blog for what seems to be ages now, and im sorry about that, its just my good old bestie mania came to visit and well she decided to stay longer than I anticipated! Anyways to those that dont know what mania is, its a side of bipolar that can be dangerous and needs to be taken care off immediately. It can cause you to go off into a downward spiral of over spending, paranoia, euphoria, it can cause you to be delusional, and make give you extreme elevated emotions, some people can even go as far as thinking they have super powers. Thankfully for me this mini episode has been full of great support, a lot of staying indoors and my fiance monitoring my card since I seem to blow through my money like its a cleanex on a cold winter morning.

Now that I finished my tangent, lets talk about mental illnesses and how they can turn some into artists. Mental illness can be linked to creativity through many test that will be provided in the video thats below this paragraph! Isn’t that weird, something that is associated as bad, can be something that can help someone create something so beautiful! Many famous people like Demi Lovato, great painters like Vincent van gough, and even Albert Einstein suffered from a mental illness! Interesting hu? Well heres the video let me know what you think in the comments below!



So recently I read a couple of articles, some good, and a couple terrible in regards to mental disorders, and I would like to share with you some of them and my reviews about them! Enjoy 🙂

This first one is a very good one, its an article in regards to how some artistic genes can be linked to mental disorders! Interesting right?

Creativity May Be Genetically Linked with Psychiatric Disorders

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So if you or someone you know is in an artistic profession or environment, STOP what you’re doing and check this out. This article talks about how a very high percentage of people who work in the artistic field or are surrounded by it have a bigger chance of acquiring a mental disorder such as bipolar or schizophrenia!

  • So if you live in an artistic society you have a 17% higher risk off carrying a mental disorder variant.
  • If you work in an artistic profession you have a staggering 25% risk off carrying a genetic variant linked to psychiatric disorders.

Interesting right? Well not only that but we don’t really know what sort of creative gene they are talking about, so don’t panic. Many people consider themselves creative, and others just work in creative environments, so who really are the 17% and 25% of people? Well you should read the article to find out!

Click me to read the article!

The article below was one off the terrible articles I read…not only did it use a mental disorder as a way to insult a company but the cartoon drawn for it was also tasteless.

Is Apple Bipolar?

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This article hopefully is just a joke, simply because its offensive. The author Charlie White wrote this article in regards to the apple stocks. He justifies his claims of the “Apple stocks” going up and down by calling them “Bipolar”.

  1. This article does not contribute anything into research, and its poorly written and named.
  2. The way he used a mental disorder as an adjective in trying to offend a company was very unprofessional.
  3. I could only ask myself after reading his article, “is this a joke?”

Sadly he is not the first not the last that will use a mental disorder as a form of expression. His article did not have any depth, and was very disappointing.  click me for some laughs!

This article below was my absolute favorite article! It not only talks about a great event for a great cause, but also mentions the great non profit organization behind it! Check it out guys!!!!

The Beautiful, Colourful Way Australia Supports World Mental Health Day

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If you love surfing, or the beach this is a great article to read! Not only does this article talk about an incredible event that is hosted weekly by a great non profit organization called One Wave, but it also introduces you to them and their cause.

  • One Wave is an non-profit organization designed to help fight the back stigma of mental disorders.
  • They focus on bringing awareness to the cause by hosting events, like “mental health days” and spreading love and support.
  • Some of the amazing ways they help many people with mental disorders is by giving them support through communication and surfing.

Like I said before if you love surfing or going to the beach, and a great cause you guys should check One Wave out. You could really make a difference in someones life! Oh and one more thing, if you or a loved one have a mental disorder and need support they also have a great people in their organization that would love to hear you out. Here is the link to One Waves website Click me! Also this amazing article can be found by Clicking ME!!!!