So as im writing this im feeling the lovely side effects of my medicine. Has that ever happened to you? Your doctor gives you this perfect little cocktail of 4 different meds an at first you think, well maybe these side effects will just go away, and nope 4 months later they are still there. My doctor wont take me off them because he thinks its the perfect combination, its worked on his other patients, blah blah blah. Well today ive had it, i feel like im about to throw up if i even attempt to leave the bed. All my friends think  im pregnant, but nope, unless im the virgin mary, there is no way. I get random headaches, that dont even hurt they just feel like someone is pulling on my brain and stretching it out, which is so uncomfortable. I shake all the time now, and im only 24 so you know thats not right. I also have weird head and eye twitches, which causes people to think im like mutated. Lets all be honest for a moment, no one wants to hear this, but its cold hard facts. ANYWAYS now that im done with my ranting, let me move on to some helpful stuff.


Medicine is amazing. It was created to help those who need it, and it does its job. Without medicine people with Bipolar disorder wouldnt have the fighting chance that they do. The only problem is that finding the right medicine takes a lot of time, which really


sucks. Ive gone through 3 years of trial and error and just when i thought i found the perfect dose, a dumb side effect stabs me right in the back. For example, Depakote Er was brilliant, but my hair started to fall off in chunks. That was no fun, and whats even worse is that i got stuck with worse pills after that, i had one that made my period stop and that gave me massive cramps.

So my advise, if you are stuck in this horrid trial and error period, dont give up. Talk to


your doctor if you start to feel some weird side effects, and dont be afraid to speak up. Medicine is your fighting chance at beating this mental illness, and having the right dose is what will give you the upper hand.

Have any horrid side effect stories, feel free to share them with me in the comments sections below!

Much love – Susy XOXO


Mental illness linked to creativity?

So I have neglected this blog for what seems to be ages now, and im sorry about that, its just my good old bestie mania came to visit and well she decided to stay longer than I anticipated! Anyways to those that dont know what mania is, its a side of bipolar that can be dangerous and needs to be taken care off immediately. It can cause you to go off into a downward spiral of over spending, paranoia, euphoria, it can cause you to be delusional, and make give you extreme elevated emotions, some people can even go as far as thinking they have super powers. Thankfully for me this mini episode has been full of great support, a lot of staying indoors and my fiance monitoring my card since I seem to blow through my money like its a cleanex on a cold winter morning.

Now that I finished my tangent, lets talk about mental illnesses and how they can turn some into artists. Mental illness can be linked to creativity through many test that will be provided in the video thats below this paragraph! Isn’t that weird, something that is associated as bad, can be something that can help someone create something so beautiful! Many famous people like Demi Lovato, great painters like Vincent van gough, and even Albert Einstein suffered from a mental illness! Interesting hu? Well heres the video let me know what you think in the comments below!


Lets talk social media!

Hey guys! So I just got done with my social media class and it was definitely an interesting experience. Through out the class I learned a lot about myself, my condition, and social media. Well enough about that lets move on to the interesting stuff!

Did you guys know social media has been linked to causing more Social-Media-and-Mental-Healthdepression? ADHD? ADD? and other mental illnesses?A study from Ottawa Public Health, the city of Ottawa’s agency for health information, programs and services, shows that teens who use social media sites for about 2 or more hours a day are more likely to suffer from mental illness, psychological distress and some suicidal thoughts. CRAZY HU?? Well sadly its true!

But its not all bad, social media has also helped in bringing awareness to mental illnesses, and helped many teens voice their concerns, ideas, and get help through it! Companies such as BuzzFeed are doing their best to bring awareness to mental illness by having events such as Mental Health Week, posting videos in regards to it, and letting their viral fame be used for the purpose of letting others know they arent alone.

So I guess the opinion in regards to social media and mental illness depends on whose reading this.What do you guys think about this study showing that mental illness is linked to social media?

Holidays and Bipolar?

Hi guys! I know some of you are still laying in bed from that food coma that thanksgiving seems to put us in, or exhausted from all the black Friday shopping! 15-holiday-disasterThe stress of November is gone for most of you but for people with bipolar disorder it’s still probably lingering in the air, just like the smell of fresh Christmas trees.The holidays are not the easiest for people with bipolar disorder sadly. The stress of making the perfect meal, or finding that special gift, even meeting new people can trigger an episode! So I’m going to give you some tips on how to survive the holidays, and also give you some helpful links that will provide further information!

  • Black Friday sales are super stressful and being around a lot of people can bring upon some  not so desired moods, my tip is to shop online. Shopping online takes away the stress from having to wait in long lines, or witnessing some very unwanted things at Walmart at 4am on black Friday.
  • Don’t worry about creating the “perfect meal”, you do your best and people will love it.
  • Keep occupied, look up DIY videos and let your creativity take away any stress or bad moods.
  • DONT OVERSPEND or OVERTHINK too much. Make a list, check it twice, and stick to it.
  • Try to surround yourself with people you love, and that won’t cause you any stress.
  • Lastly if you still feel an episode about to come on, call your doctor. Don’t hesitate just because you have company coming over, your health is always number one.

So those are my personal tips for surviving the holidays! I know I used all of them this Thanksgiving. Trust me, shopping online is number one on my list for a reason. Anyways here are also some very helpful links with some more info on how to survive the Holidays!

This is an amazing site, with plenty of info and great tips!

A helpful guide to survive

Holiday Survival 101

Pinterest anyone?

Hi guys, so I finally discovered a lovely site called Pinterest! Its a photo sharing site that lets you pin things that you find interesting, and connect with friends and family! So I found a couple of pictures on this site that I would love to share with you guys, I will also be providing you guys with a link to my Pinterest board so you guys can hear what I have to say about the images, and what they mean to me!

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These are all very beautiful images and quotes that contain very useful information!Here is the link to my pinterest! Click me!


So recently I read a couple of articles, some good, and a couple terrible in regards to mental disorders, and I would like to share with you some of them and my reviews about them! Enjoy 🙂

This first one is a very good one, its an article in regards to how some artistic genes can be linked to mental disorders! Interesting right?

Creativity May Be Genetically Linked with Psychiatric Disorders

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So if you or someone you know is in an artistic profession or environment, STOP what you’re doing and check this out. This article talks about how a very high percentage of people who work in the artistic field or are surrounded by it have a bigger chance of acquiring a mental disorder such as bipolar or schizophrenia!

  • So if you live in an artistic society you have a 17% higher risk off carrying a mental disorder variant.
  • If you work in an artistic profession you have a staggering 25% risk off carrying a genetic variant linked to psychiatric disorders.

Interesting right? Well not only that but we don’t really know what sort of creative gene they are talking about, so don’t panic. Many people consider themselves creative, and others just work in creative environments, so who really are the 17% and 25% of people? Well you should read the article to find out!

Click me to read the article!

The article below was one off the terrible articles I read…not only did it use a mental disorder as a way to insult a company but the cartoon drawn for it was also tasteless.

Is Apple Bipolar?

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This article hopefully is just a joke, simply because its offensive. The author Charlie White wrote this article in regards to the apple stocks. He justifies his claims of the “Apple stocks” going up and down by calling them “Bipolar”.

  1. This article does not contribute anything into research, and its poorly written and named.
  2. The way he used a mental disorder as an adjective in trying to offend a company was very unprofessional.
  3. I could only ask myself after reading his article, “is this a joke?”

Sadly he is not the first not the last that will use a mental disorder as a form of expression. His article did not have any depth, and was very disappointing.  click me for some laughs!

This article below was my absolute favorite article! It not only talks about a great event for a great cause, but also mentions the great non profit organization behind it! Check it out guys!!!!

The Beautiful, Colourful Way Australia Supports World Mental Health Day

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If you love surfing, or the beach this is a great article to read! Not only does this article talk about an incredible event that is hosted weekly by a great non profit organization called One Wave, but it also introduces you to them and their cause.

  • One Wave is an non-profit organization designed to help fight the back stigma of mental disorders.
  • They focus on bringing awareness to the cause by hosting events, like “mental health days” and spreading love and support.
  • Some of the amazing ways they help many people with mental disorders is by giving them support through communication and surfing.

Like I said before if you love surfing or going to the beach, and a great cause you guys should check One Wave out. You could really make a difference in someones life! Oh and one more thing, if you or a loved one have a mental disorder and need support they also have a great people in their organization that would love to hear you out. Here is the link to One Waves website Click me! Also this amazing article can be found by Clicking ME!!!!

The ups & downs of treatment

Being bipolar has never been an easy thing for me, nor for anyone I have met that has it. It has its ups and definitely has its downs, but did you know some treatment might help with those downs?

So when you first find out you have Bipolar Disorder the first thing the doctor tumblr_nww3ewXL9o1usrb1co1_500usually does is put you on some type of medication to see if it helps stabilize you.
This is called the “Trial & Error” period. During this horrible period, you either realize the treatment is actually meant for your good, or you just want the agony off all the side effects to go away. If the medicine is not right for you or your type of Bipolar Disorder, you could actually have a lot of Bipolar episodes get triggered, as well as having your depression and some suicidal behavior increase. So im going to help you in figuring out if the medicine you are taking is not right for you.

  • If out of nowhere you start feeling more depressed than usual, and its becoming a constant thing, after you have taken the medicine for a month or two. Talk to your doctor this is not normal, and can increase.
  • If you start feeling weird symptoms like “static vision”, “brain zaps”, getting more irritated than normal, black outs, irrational thinking. These are not good things, they can harm you.

I have personally been affected by medicine, and trust me its not fun. I talked to my doctor and he helped me find the medicine that was right for me and my type of Bipolar. My new treatment has worked wonders on me, and I live a normal life thanks to it.

Treatment is not a negative thing, it is a positive. Like any other thing it has its downs, but it mostly has positive things come out of it. Taking medicine to help cure your type of Bipolar Disorder is a great way in helping you have a stable life. Talking to a therapist, doctor, or a psychiatrist about your concerns, or getting answers to your bottled up questions, is always relieving and gives you more information in regards to where you are in your treatment. Remember your happiness matters, and treatment will help you in your fight against Bipolar disorder.

How to deal with stress at work when you are bipolar.

Stress and the work place have gone hand in hand for decades! Everyone around the world knows what its like to be stressed at one point during a busy shift at work or just by one single customer complain. What if though you added a mood disorder in the mix like Bipolar Disorder? How much more would that multiply your stress?

When I first found out I was Bipolar I didn’t want to really acknowledge it so when I got my first job and we were having a grand opening event I crumbled under tumblr_npgikqQrZe1s4yxszo1_1280
pressure. I was sent into a manic episode instantly, and I had to get hospitalized. That moment I realized that maybe I should take my mood disorder more seriously especially if my work environment was going to be so hectic, and I was going to be constantly stressed out. As I read up
on my Bipolar Disorder I realized that stressful environments should be avoided especially if around big crowds constantly, but with the economy these days and the limited jobs many people like myself don’t have that option. So I read some great tips on how to deal with stress at work if you or a loved one have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.

  • Always remember it is going to be okay.
  • Learn breathing exercises or better yet get a habit that gets your mind off stress instantly, I tap my finger tips in song motion and purposely mess up to distract myself from the stress as I try to fix the song rhythm.
  • You don’t have to tell anyone at work or your boss but I HIGHLY RECOMMEND telling your boss or someone in case your stress is to much to handle. Majority of the time you will be allowed to take an extra break or possibly go home to rest.
  • Make sure to not push yourself to hard or rush things. Take your time.
  • Really think about any decision you make carefully since we do tend to act or make decisions impulsively.
  • Call your therapist if all else fails, and always keep your in case of an emergency mood stabilizers or anxiety medicine in your bag for that purpose.

For more helpful information check out this website, its full of great information. Bipolar Disorder at Work