So as im writing this im feeling the lovely side effects of my medicine. Has that ever happened to you? Your doctor gives you this perfect little cocktail of 4 different meds an at first you think, well maybe these side effects will just go away, and nope 4 months later they are still there. My doctor wont take me off them because he thinks its the perfect combination, its worked on his other patients, blah blah blah. Well today ive had it, i feel like im about to throw up if i even attempt to leave the bed. All my friends think  im pregnant, but nope, unless im the virgin mary, there is no way. I get random headaches, that dont even hurt they just feel like someone is pulling on my brain and stretching it out, which is so uncomfortable. I shake all the time now, and im only 24 so you know thats not right. I also have weird head and eye twitches, which causes people to think im like mutated. Lets all be honest for a moment, no one wants to hear this, but its cold hard facts. ANYWAYS now that im done with my ranting, let me move on to some helpful stuff.


Medicine is amazing. It was created to help those who need it, and it does its job. Without medicine people with Bipolar disorder wouldnt have the fighting chance that they do. The only problem is that finding the right medicine takes a lot of time, which really


sucks. Ive gone through 3 years of trial and error and just when i thought i found the perfect dose, a dumb side effect stabs me right in the back. For example, Depakote Er was brilliant, but my hair started to fall off in chunks. That was no fun, and whats even worse is that i got stuck with worse pills after that, i had one that made my period stop and that gave me massive cramps.

So my advise, if you are stuck in this horrid trial and error period, dont give up. Talk to


your doctor if you start to feel some weird side effects, and dont be afraid to speak up. Medicine is your fighting chance at beating this mental illness, and having the right dose is what will give you the upper hand.

Have any horrid side effect stories, feel free to share them with me in the comments sections below!

Much love – Susy XOXO


The ups & downs of treatment

Being bipolar has never been an easy thing for me, nor for anyone I have met that has it. It has its ups and definitely has its downs, but did you know some treatment might help with those downs?

So when you first find out you have Bipolar Disorder the first thing the doctor tumblr_nww3ewXL9o1usrb1co1_500usually does is put you on some type of medication to see if it helps stabilize you.
This is called the “Trial & Error” period. During this horrible period, you either realize the treatment is actually meant for your good, or you just want the agony off all the side effects to go away. If the medicine is not right for you or your type of Bipolar Disorder, you could actually have a lot of Bipolar episodes get triggered, as well as having your depression and some suicidal behavior increase. So im going to help you in figuring out if the medicine you are taking is not right for you.

  • If out of nowhere you start feeling more depressed than usual, and its becoming a constant thing, after you have taken the medicine for a month or two. Talk to your doctor this is not normal, and can increase.
  • If you start feeling weird symptoms like “static vision”, “brain zaps”, getting more irritated than normal, black outs, irrational thinking. These are not good things, they can harm you.

I have personally been affected by medicine, and trust me its not fun. I talked to my doctor and he helped me find the medicine that was right for me and my type of Bipolar. My new treatment has worked wonders on me, and I live a normal life thanks to it.

Treatment is not a negative thing, it is a positive. Like any other thing it has its downs, but it mostly has positive things come out of it. Taking medicine to help cure your type of Bipolar Disorder is a great way in helping you have a stable life. Talking to a therapist, doctor, or a psychiatrist about your concerns, or getting answers to your bottled up questions, is always relieving and gives you more information in regards to where you are in your treatment. Remember your happiness matters, and treatment will help you in your fight against Bipolar disorder.